The LNAT today was good. Probably wrote one of the best factual essays of my life- and all that in 40 minutes. I wanted to take a copy home because I liked it so much but I wasn't allowed to, which sort of makes sense because that would entail revealing the question that I had been asked.

On another note, Check Yes Juliet is the most amazing love song of the year. It makes you go "Aww" while managing to carry off that altern-rock feeling. It sort of reminds me of a book title, maybe because the first time I heard of the song it was off somebody's artwork title? In fact I didn't even know it was a song until last night when my sister came home and made me listen to it.

I've been having a lot of fun with The Crew's blog (which now includes Priya, she joined like today I think? Ahahaha) because we keep editing each others' posts. I just made a comprehensive post about... well, sugar. And how I have all this candy in my house that I can't eat because ( ) <--- taking a leaf out of Sarah's book. HAHA. And it's not because I don't want to put on weight, which should really be a reason, but it isn't. It's something far more innocent. I'll give you a clue: It has to do with paintballs. (:

NaNoWriMo starts tomorrow, or midnight. Whichever. I can't wait ^^ Guys, make sure I write instead of laze around, ya?

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MORE SHAMELESS PLUGGING.

COME HERE IF YOU LOVE:

Jing Min, Jasryn, Su Yin, Panit, Sarah, Sara, Darren, or the wonderful me. ;]

We are made of awesomesauce.

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SHAMELESS PLUGGING. Come here if you love Cheryl. Or me.

I just signed up for NaNoWriMo.

I AM INSANE.

Jas and I were just having this conversation about each other, and whether people knew a lot about us or not. She said that she didn't know that much about me, and I agree that I don't know that much about her either.

So, I have a question: Do you guys think you know a lot about me, or not? And lastly, is there anything about me that you want to know?

Oh, well.

Throwing away everything you've been working for for the past two years isn't the end of the world!

I may be stupid, I may be clumsy. I may be the most annoying person in the world-

But today, I was reminded that there are people that care for me. <3

I'm standing on the brink, teetering between a future I'm unsure of and a past I'm not sure I want to leave behind.
Why haven't I chosen the past and just run?
I don't know.
I really don't know.
I don't know what I've been doing for the past few days. Work, bitchiness, more work and then work again. A vicious cycle, one that I'm unsure of and one that I don't understand.
Who am I, really? What have I done for this earth that defines me as a person, that makes me stand out as a human being?
I sit, I wonder, I think.
I keep sitting, thinking. My Mind draws a blank.
I am suddenly reminded of someone.
Someone that I haven't spoken to in ages, someone that I looked up to.
If I go, she'll be my senior all over again.
I sit, I ponder.
It's still blank.
Sarah's reading French words in the background.
If even she doesn't have the confidence to apply, why should I?
Why would they pick ME, a 40-point student without a credit to her name, over someone like Sarah or Priya or Jasryn or Jing min or Su?
Why would they pick me over ANYONE?
I lied when I said that I had nothing to lose.
I have too much to lose now.
A lifetime of hopes, a lifetime of dreams.
If this doesn't happen, I've got to start from square one.
And I have a sinking feeling it's not going to.
I sit, I ponder
I scream.

Dear Su Yin,

I will not repeat the mega- long essay I wrote on your Facebook wall, but,

I FREAKING LOVE YOU DARLING
STAY AWESOMETASTIC
MAYBE I MIGHT CHEAT ON SHU LIN WITH YOU
NO WAIT I ALREADY DID
BUT WHO CARES
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
I'D WRITE THIS MESSAGE IN THE SHAPE OF A HEART
BUT I SUCK AT ART
HEY THAT RHYMED! WHEEEEE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

So I was having a pretty bad day today, then I went home and checked Adela's blog:

SHE GOT MY LETTER.

IT WASN'T LOST IN THE MAIL.

WHEEE!

Stolen from LiveJournal.

Post this on your blog if tagged, and answer the questions for the person that tagged you. Then, tag people who have to answer this.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God(dess)?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I tag: Hai Sherng, Kylie, Pris, Rachel. Last few people to post on my CBox, hence I tag them. Oh, and I tag Amy, XT, Gummy, Sarah, Sara, and Jas too. Just because. For good measure Cheryl also has to fill this out for our blog.

Ask me not what I am inside,
but for the mask that I wear,
thick make-up I share;
Ask me not for my inner thoughts,
but for the tapestry I weave,
the sighs that I heave.
Love me not for my hopes and my dreams,
but for the paintings I paint,
a scholar, a saint;

For I am sick of being a dumpling-
I want not for people to bite me before they
know of my meat,
For I am done with being a guzheng,
whose screeching sound emits when it is
not played, but picked,
For I am tired of a life where you
wind me like clockwork,
wrap me in chains,
bind my feet with red cloth and
burn me into ash.

wrapped up in rose-tinted sheets, she lifts her eyelids with a
sigh, gazing into the distance outside her window
and the breaking sun. daytime has arrived, sealing the doors of a
sleepless night shut, marking
the end of a horizon of restless dreams,
winding tapestries with battered seams.

is it too much to ask? no, fat skeleton stares back at her from
her mirror; she needs not have mascara under her eyes
and yet she is snow-white; shot at dawn, wondering
what and why and how
this will be if she stumbles ahead.

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OMG I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED.

AHH.

AHH.

*spazzes*

Today.

I swear.

That I will try to be constructive when commenting on other peoples' works.

This was spawned after I posted a comment on a piece of art.

And then I realized I liked it better when people told me WHAT they liked about my writing, not just that they liked it.

Of course praise is always good, but I like criticism/constructive praise too.

So RAWR.

From now onwards, I will try to be... constructive.

And to stop wasting time on iAnti/Facebook/deviantArt.

And to stop checking my e-mail compulsively.

Har.

We shall see how long this lasts

And you know;

It's almost enough to make me feel like re-evaluating friendship, love, and everything that falls in between.

Just because I post lyrics does not mean that I feel the same way. That being said, my current MSN screen name is very relevant to my current mental state (Haha, Xiangsi, you know what I mean). However, here's a song I want to share with you guys. If any guy sang this song to me, I would melt. Unless, of course, he didn't mean it. Then I would set him on fire and HE would melt.

Best I Ever Had- State of Shock. I love their band name. This is such a boy-band-ish song, but hey, it makes me happy.

Not for any particular reason, kay pohs.

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke

You and I were living like a love song
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,
You were the best I ever had