i don't think most of my new friends know that my lifelong dream is still to become an author.

maybe i need to go back and reevaluate my priorities so that i don't lose myself in plan b.

lmao I sometimes wonder whether this is actually a trigger for me. Then I remember what happened to me has happened to almost every girl or dfab person I know especially the ones I met in New York City and I don't know why this hit me so badly but I think I might?? Have been triggered?? And I think I'm overreacting and sometimes I wonder whether the whole incident was all in my head and whether I may?? Be trying to make myself?? The victim or something I don't know but either way what happened today set off something in me it's like a slow burn that has come to a peak and I can't sleep and I want to puke and I need to go out tomorrow but I don't think I can I feel gross I want to puke and I just want a hug and I don't I can't I can't i can't I can't why is this hitting me so hard it happens to EVERYONE

i woke up this morning with an awful awful nightmare and i still feel like crying even though it's 11:45 and i have work to do and i just. feel like shit. and i want to cry really badly and i'm the only person in the office but i can't because i have a birthday party to go to later and it'll wreck my makeup and and and and and ;;;;;